what says your dream?

ニュアンス

xianjie — Tue, 21 Jul 2009 15:49:32 +0000

I am reminded every single day that I’m not a perfect man. I will not be a perfect man… But I can promise you this. But I will always tell you what I think and where I stand. I will always be honest about the challenges we stand. I will listen to you when we disagree. But mostly importantly, I will ask you to be involved in the things that I do.

Three countries in the space of two months have made me felt like a totally different person. The things that I saw, the people that I met, the fellowship that I had, the testimonies that I heard, the pain from the lives of the people that I interacted with, all left an indelible mark on me. I feel like I’m not catching up with the most faithful in my pursuit of God, yet sometimes torn over the fact that some of my friends are gradually left behind, either because we start to place different priorities and I threw my lot with Jesus.

A skit that touched me quite a bit, on top of Goodwill Hunting. But there is enough content now for many many posts ahead.

This journal is back.

Beyond Racial politics and an epoch of change.

xianjie — Wed, 05 Nov 2008 19:31:20 +0000

It felt so good that Obama won the presidential election. The consistency of his message, the stunning audacity of his ideas on a more perfect union, and an even more improbable belief and courage that the time for change has come, who made history because of his race and in spite of it. I can imagine strangers of different colours and nationalities celebrating this moment all over the world. It feels really good to be at the crossroads of such a memorable and significant of my adult life and political scientist.

Rosa Parks sat in 1955. Martin Luther King walked in 1963. Barack Obama ran in 2008. That our children might fly. God bless the world through America.

Yes We Can!

Gatherings & Moving on.

xianjie — Mon, 12 May 2008 20:43:11 +0000

There are things that I would love to build on while some things that I like to weed off in the next phase of my life, which promises to be intensively emotionally, spiritually and mentally challenging. I’ve also find myself a bit reluctant to blog sometimes, and I like to limit any future blogs to a more intimate audience of family and friends.

The only constant thing is change. How this paradox never fails to hit at the right moments over and over again. : )

Feminity : )

xianjie — Thu, 08 May 2008 00:22:14 +0000

You must walk feminine
talk feminine
smile and beguile feminine
utilize your femininity
that’s what every girl should know
if she wants to catch a beau

dance feminine, glance feminine
act shy and sigh feminine
compliment his masculinity
that’s what every girl should know
if she wants to catch a beau
let him do the talking

men adore good listeners
laugh, but not loudly, haha
if he should choose to tell a joke
Be radiant, but delicate

memorize the rules of ettiquette
be demure, sweet and pure
hide the real you
You must laugh feminine, dress feminine

you’re at your best feminine
emphasize your feminity
thats what every girl should know
femininity, femininity
thats the way to catch a beau

Protected: Peace in my struggles. (the 6digitcode)

xianjie — Mon, 05 May 2008 20:20:06 +0000

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Nostalgia. Osmonds & 3rd Guards.

xianjie — Fri, 02 May 2008 17:44:16 +0000

I love the way they sing ‘Love me for a Reason” and dance with so much lucidity, harmony and gentleness.

And 50years down the road, the Osmond brothers, with the same song, show us how can we grow old gracefully. Ah. : )

Am going to take my IPPT soon and some of my old buddies are going for their reservist right after the exams are over. Almost a year and half since passing out. The army times have been solid times. Yeah. 3Guards Woo Haa!

The Guardsman Creed. Ready to Strike.

Passing out parade.

Learning how to do building, cliff and helicopter rappelling at Bedok Camp.

Getting our Guardsman badges at Sembawang airbase on a Super Puma. One of the most fun experiences of my life. : )

Some of the peeps who went to the gas chamber to be gassed.

在考场的压力中经历上帝.

xianjie — Thu, 01 May 2008 16:52:23 +0000

Giving Jesus supervision of your life is sometimes called brokenness, which means coming to an end or denying yourself. Brokenness occurs when you give up trying to accomplish things and make your life work according to your own strength.

To let go and let live and to honour God are reminders that I have to consciously and intentionally remind myself and my friends even more in this testing period. Ah…

Flexibility to the will of God.

xianjie — Mon, 28 Apr 2008 19:46:22 +0000

“Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.”

-Matthew 11:29

Unconditional love is so hard to accept sometimes. To sum things up, I walked out of my first paper today wondering whether I could ever live the way I felt God wanted me to live. To study so hard and feel so lousy after the paper. I’m feeling a mounting resistance to God’s spirit. Talking to GK on the way home although she was trying to be encouraging, somehow made me felt worse instead. Compounded to that my mom and my sis asked me how did I do and I didn’t know how to reply. All it took was an examination to make me feel so wasted. And the rest isn’t over yet.

The tensions during examination period can make you feel weaker than normal and more susceptible to sin, especially with supremely lousy thoughts about myself. Di Song said my last week’s worth of events probably took subconscious toil.

“His divine power has given us everything we need for life and godliness through our knowledge of him who called us by his own glory and goodness.’

-1Peter 1:3

I took some time out to pray, and to reflect on the verses that my friends have sent me and encouraged me. Praying for my friends who are taking their exams, giving thanks to the Lord for seeing us through today, and asking the God to turn my disappointments into a sacrifices which can be used to display His glory all helped to prevent me from turning inwardly and close myself up to the great glory that God is displaying in my environment, which I couldn’t see because I blind myself to it.

I’m leaving many things left unsaid, but I like to end by saying that amidst all these struggling thoughts, I still firmly believe there can be no other more awesome being for me to leave my burdens and essentially, my whole life with. And I pray that too God continues to break me down and humble me so that I can be used greatly by Him.

Love Tempers.

xianjie — Sun, 27 Apr 2008 14:51:29 +0000

Today’s sermon by Preacher Tan Hock Sim on 1 Corinthians 8:1-13 touched on tempering knowledge with love. Knowledge and wisdom is useless without love. Especially with regards to equipping the spiritually weaker brothers and sisters-in-christ. There is a lot of wisdom on freedom, knowledge and how love tempers all that needs space and time to reflect on. I pray that my fellow brothers and sisters are reflecting on this message too.

Quite nervous and exciting for the upcoming exams. : ) All the best to our best! There are lots to update, but see you readers after the exams are over on 7th May for me.

“Not by might nor by power, but by my Spirit,” says the Lord Almighty.

-Zechariah 4:6

Open Door, Open Arms.

xianjie — Sat, 26 Apr 2008 17:13:11 +0000

I seldom see the sofas so crowded without a space for myself. : ) Nice to see all of us together even though it is in the middle of my examination period. Welcome back Jie: )

Min Min fractured her collar-bone playing contact, which was exactly the same injury that I got when I was playing. Would be keeping her in prayer.

Duong will be in Singapore leading a tour group from Vietnam from 2nd to 5th of May. Krongchit will be around in town too. And Jie will be leaving on the 5th of May. Need to study and need to make time. Thankfully I did not schedule tuition for the incoming week.

Press on!!